Also had my mind racing about money stuff. Really proud of the budget thingy I made but brain won't stop now and been working out daily chore tasks and stuff and as Alex would say, brain go brrrrr.
Think my brain is going overdrive to distract me from the obvious. But my knees didn't need to join in.
I don't need knees right? Damn Maggie never returned my saw. Bitch. This is her fault now!
I hate you're in pain all the time, I chock it up to another thing on my list of why life is bullshit and unfair. Makes me think of that skullsuggert character and how there are so many more deserving people of constant suffering than you. Maybe it's an ego thing too, I can fix almost anything but not the shit that's effecting the man I love the most.
ReplyDeleteI am so imessurably proud of you. I suck at words when it comes to things like this but you did so incredibly incredibly well I'm just bursting with pride and happiness. When I saw you taking initiative and making lists and tracking things I looked over and saw the man with his maps and papers strewn across the floor all those many moons ago, the man I love so deeply and so desperately it was wonderful. You're an incredible and rare combination of a kind heart and brilliant mind that I love so much. You are my hope in this world.
Also fuck Maggie for having our saw, that's some bullshit right there. Again though, kinda heart lol. On my end only really thought I had was waking up and thinking what bullshit of a choice "work or die" is but I guess motivation is motivation is motivation. Yesterday was just so wonderful working together as a crack team and so euphoric I'm gonna make more of those moments, full time work be damned.